Archive for July, 2008

To bh

Tuesday, July 15th, 2008

To BH,who don’t understand my previous posts.

You know what,after reading the 2 sides which you recommended to me,I have a strong intention to write this in this language.Thanks for sharing.Hoping that what they are experiencing now will totally happen to me,or rather i should say,to us.

You know what I mean.

Recently,I finally picked up the book "Kite Runner" which i borrowed from Lai Kwan.I am sure you are still remember her right?We were getting so closed last month since it  was her semester break and my long  vacation before heading to Taipei.We shared everything about music(which I am not so interested in because her taste is so unpopular),books,traveling and etc.We went to the book exhibition which held at KLCC Convention Center too last few months.Now I am started missing her.

Oh yes,actually I am going to say about the book.After reading 5 chapters of it,I started to feel sad.Khaled Hosseini is a great story teller.Lai Kwan told me she was totally immersed inside the raging ocean of the story and shocked to know some of the facts and truths which narrated by Khaled.To me,it is a good experience reading it.Highly recommended to you.

The thing that I have mentioned to you,still,I am not confident.I am confused between whether I am lack of self-confidence or lack of confidence to the one who is staying here.Felt scared and helpless.As you told me,we need to learn from mistakes,but why not if I do the things right in the first time?Once again,I am not going to let it bother me too much and too long.

Ok then,stop here.

   

成功!!

Wednesday, July 9th, 2008

平常写博客,都是在事情发生后几天才把故事写出来,一来自己懒,二来不急于把发生的是公诸于世,三来低调,不爱透露私隐;大家看到的,只是我生活中的冰山一角。因此,我只是为了讲述故事而讲述,少了那种当下的感觉,那份情意。

今天晚上,回到家,冲了凉,泡上一杯咖啡,坐在电脑前,打算把刚刚发生的事情写出来。

今天傍晚到声学阁录音,当voice out的嘉宾。我们的主题是槟城和马六甲申遗成功。上上一次当嘉宾的时候谈的是四川大地震,上一次是自己主持,主题是油价起价。上上次因为种种原因而被刷下来(老师说太多口头禅);上次觉得自己严重表现不好,只达到勉强过关的程度。事后都不敢问郑荣老师和嘉荣老师自己的表现如何,现在才发现这是不好的,应该正视自己的缺点才对。

这一次,我们三个人(弈谨和丽琳)畅所欲谈,在不是准备得很足够和经过嘉荣老师briefing的情况之下成功完成30
分钟的录音。我觉得大家都表现得很好,很有谈天的感觉。还没出街(www.voicemedia.com.my),就先感动自己。

所以,我马上写下来,我要留住那种当下的感觉,要提醒自己这种表现是怎样得来的,要保存那种失去很久做节目的感觉,要知道自己的缺点,要清楚自己的优点。

我走在学习路上。

顺风

Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008

昨天晚上我、家文、晓雯、惠卉到pj聚会,法尔维尔(farwell)家文。下星期,他就飞澳洲升学去了。

咱都是中学辩友。

晚餐过后,一伙儿为了迁就我这Mr.Cinderella而到我家附近的咖啡屋聊天。感觉是好的。

咱每个人开始为自己的的未来织梦,勇敢地、坚强地、无悔地。

顺风家文。我爱你们。

没大志

Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008

怎样形容现在的生活呢?嗯,应该是优哉游哉。

在于丹的笔触下,原来庄子哲学不难理解,她让一些对中国历史模糊的人,尤其是我,了解这百家思想中其中一个重要人物的学问

现在每当朋友问我做什么的时候,我总是回答:“没什么,空着闲着。”一个星期9小时工作教书,其余的时间就做自己喜欢的事情。这其中不外乎看书、看电视、找朋友、录音、活动筹备。友人一脸你怎么那么让费时间的脸孔。我承认,我没什么大志。

我的感觉不是你的感觉,如人饮水,冷暖自知,我只能说,生活的页张在跳动,一页一张都在心里面。(本出自星云大师“我的感觉不是你的感觉,如人饮水,冷暖自知,我只能说,点滴在心头,一点一滴都在心里面。”)

早上一杯咖啡一份报纸,够矣。稍后加上鲁豫的节目,完美矣。

下午看Max Foster播报新闻,够矣。

傍晚和爸妈吃晚餐,够矣。

晚上上上网,看看书,够矣。

偶尔接到录音的安排,就去录音;偶尔接到筹委工作准备,就去准备;偶尔接到声学阁值班工作,就去值班;偶尔姐姐相约唱歌走街,就去唱歌走街;偶尔朋友约出街,就出街。静静地,慢慢地,少了紧张且压力的生活,神经不再像紧绷的弦线随时处在断裂状态,成为生活真正的主张者。

哈哈,这还会延续到9月份呢,你就当我没大志吧!